Ok so I've tried to fight it... But I'm getting the case of the lonliness coming on. More and more I seem to be an outsider at work. And then I come home to an empty house and no cable tv so I tend to go get redbox movies since they're cheap. Well usually in the summertime I go to our apartment pool to people watch and just enjoy the time outside. Since they are STILL working on the pool I can't do that just yet. Then I really found out I didn't have a life when I found out the people I hang out with the most both had plans this weekend so I'm scrambling to find something to do so I'm not wallowing in self-pity LOL. I'm sure there will be something to do I just have to look around and see what's out there.
My mom suggested joining some kind of activity to meet new people so I'm not so dependent on the friends I do have. I have no clue where to start for that and am trying to find something I'm interested in that isn't alcohol related...LOL So to keep myself from being too lonely sometimes I go to the mall and people watch or go to the 2 dollar theater to watch a movie just to be around people. Sad I know. I feel like my grandma did when she was alive and didn't have anyone to hang out with. Ugh! I need to get my life together because I'll be 34 in less than 2 weeks!
Marcie...sometimes you need that alone time to grow. You need to find happiness with being "alone" because as you have found out...you are a dependent person. I am also a very dependent person and there was a time I drowned my sorrows in a bottle of wine and alcohol can be what seems to be an easy fix and your best friend so don't go down that path. You do need to find a good support system like your Mother suggested :)
ReplyDeleteI know you're still looking around & trying them out, but whenever you feel comfortable in a church, that is the BEST non-meat-market place to make friends! Most have AWESOME singles classes!!! :-)
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