As I have been spending a lot of time alone these past few weeks I've been talking with God and really building a relationship with Him. Went to a friend's church this morning because I'm still looking for a church to call "home" and it just didn't feel right. The female pastor that was speaking was talking about how us as children of God need to go out and share the Word with others... Well coming from a background of parents who did believe in God but didn't go to church on a regular basis I was taught that you form your own opinions and own thoughts about how you came to be in this world and whether or not you believe in God is your choice. I've always believed in God myself, although my mind has been led astray from time to time. I know that He has a plan for me and I know he wanted me to move to Kansas for a reason. To grow up, to find myself, and to make a life for myself without depending on my parents all the time. I still feel like I depend on my parents ALOT more than I should but everyone has someone they lean on the most... whether it be a spouse, a parent, a child, etc... Mine just happen to be my parents.
I just really want to find a church that I can share fellowship with and hopefully minister to children in some way. I want to have a pastor that I can trust that can help pray with me when times are rough, and not make me feel like I need to share the word of God with others. I just want to be able to share the Glory of God with my fellow church members and if anyone asks me about God I would be more than happy to share my thoughts and feelings. I do miss not having people to bounce things off of and hope that someday God will give me someone who will not necessarily share the same thoughts and feelings but will truly listen to me and be able to give me feedback. Until then I have blogging and being able to get my thoughts out in the open does help.
Praying for God to open up all the right doors for you - to the right job, the right church, the right man, and the happy choice to have children! You sound like you are absolutely on the right track, actively taking the steps to find the best fits for you in God's will. <3
ReplyDeleteMarcie you will find your "Church Home" when the time is right. I am like your parents. We don't attend church on a regular basis but our household believes in God. Victoria is a member of FCA and loves it. I just hate being preached at for not preaching to others. That's not my thing and sadly when the a preacher starts that it usually falls on my deaf ears - I zone out. I feel like I can pray to my God in the 4 walls of my home and be just as good as the person who sits on the front pew every Sunday. We all have our own expectations and views on religion and I don't think any of them are wrong or 100% right. You do what YOU need to do in order to feel good about yourself. <3 Saying a prayer for you. Don't stress too much about it because it will happen when it's gonna happen.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Jamie - one of the best pastors I ever had did a sermon on witnessing, and he said the #1 BEST way to "spread the Gospel" is NOT by passing out tracts on the street corner, not by beating people over the head with your Bible, but just by living your life as a good example. When people then come to you with questions, be ready to talk; but the most genuine way is to just live a life that glorifies God & speaks for itself. That totally stuck w/ me, b/c I think growing up down South, we can often be made to feel guilty for not "getting out there" and that is SOOOO *NOT* what church should be! Going to church should be about getting support from new friends who have similar beliefs and you personally learning & growing yourself - not boot camp on how to win converts. :-P That same pastor also talked about "being salty" - like we Christians are the salt of the Earth, and it's perfect for us to sprinkle little dustings of His love all over everything we touch just by living our lives; but when things get "too salty" it's just gross for everyone. :-D It overpowers whatever good you were trying to do & turns people off. He's right!
ReplyDeleteDon't ever feel guilty for following your heart! You are totally on the right track!!!
Thanks ladies!! I just need to find somewhere that feels like home to me and I really like big churches for some reason... Mostly because they usually have a variety of activities and you can meet more people... I'm really excited to see what this year brings. I haven't been this joyous about life in a really long time!
ReplyDeleteThat makes me smile just reading it. :-)
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