Well found out today that I got rejected from the apartment complex where I was going to share an apartment with a roommate. Kids do not ever get credit cards and make sure to pay every bill on time! Those are words to live by. And stay in school because if you don't you will end up like me. And believe me NO ONE wants to end up like me LOL... I swear I'm in a hole that I will never leave. I'm stuck there with no end in sight. The one silver lining is that I get go see my family in a little less than 2 weeks. Sigh... Gotta love being the unsuccessful one. Oh look it's Cheri she has two kids a husband and she's amazing (which she is :) and brilliant!) and then there's Marcie... Well at least she got out of her parents house... LOL Not at all successful and her parents have to keep bailing her out. I AM going to pay them back and my parents have offered to get me a financial advisor because me and my dad don't see eye to eye when it comes to finances and it just ends up being a really big argument and I have enough going wrong right now that I don't want my parents and I fighting. I just feel guilty and humiliated and embarrassed. I have to look inside myself and see what I'm doing wrong in my life. I'm sure it's fixable I'm just at a loss right now...
Luckily after I got that phone call (and had my panic attack which I seem to have a lot lately) I told my work I had to go take care of some things and then went to my current landlord to make sure I could sign a lease since I had already given them notice and everything. They said that would be ok so at least I still have a place to live. I just hate that I disappoint people all the time... Oh there's Marcie screwing up yet again. It feels like it's neverending
Marcie. This is ALL a learning experience and you aren't the screwed up one. I know you DON'T want to do this but I think you should move back home, get a job and SAVE some money. Seriously. It doesn't make you a failure to accept that you screwed up and made some bad financial decisions. It makes you a failure only if you don't do something about it. I *know* you have a life where you are at but sometimes moving back home is the best for the time being. Remember it's TEMPORARY not PERMANENT. Something to think about. Seriously.
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