Well as you know from my posts or facebook statuses.. I had a boyfriend for a couple months now. I think I'm getting to the point in my life where I need to stop having "boyfriend/girlfriend" relationships for the time being and just go out on dates... Breaking up is really painful for me. I know I shouldn't be so invested in a relationship that I don't see going anywhere but I was. I tend to dive in with my whole heart only to be disappointed with the outcome. Jimmy is a sweetheart and I really hope he does find someone that truly loves him and wants to be with him. Someone who wants to put in the effort of him being able to open up to them. I just felt like we were dance partners at the club who sometimes kissed. I didn't feel like we were dating and even some people I know didn't even know we were dating. I want someone who will light a fire inside me. Someone who challenges me to be better than I am and someone who wants to be around me and not just at the club. Hopefully I will find that man someday and if not I have wonderful friends and family to fill that void :)... Just going to take one day at a time and have some fun instead of diving head first into a relationship until I truly get to know someone.
I guess for me I've always thought that if someone actually showed an interest in me that I should be grateful and date said person... Well my confidence is building more now and I feel like I don't have to settle... I'm starting to feel prettier on the outside (even though I think my friends are 10 times more gorgeous than me)... I just need to find someone who thinks I'm someone worth being with.
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